teenage-revolt:

it’s going to be a long, long night.

You know, it’s not like my feelings matter anyways. People have always walked all over me. What makes now any different from then? I try to stick up for myself and point out that someone did me wrong and they deny it… Like as if they don’t even notice they do it. Just something the weak learn to deal with I guess. Just something that can’t be changed.

So you think, “nahh that would never happen to me..”.. Open your fucking eyes. Some people treat it like a joke. They don’t cherish the people in their lives that have the possibility of having it. They talk smack on the people who have the possibility of having it. They shoot down the people who have the possibility of having it. My mom has it. I could have it, and you know who else can have it? That kid you called annoying yesterday. That girl you said was a whore or the one you said was fat. There are millions of things I’d rather be doing then sitting here in this stupid house with a sick mom and a brother who’d rather go out on Friday night then set up for his mother’s birthday who.. God forbid… Might not even be here for her next. Or a dad who I’ve never once in my life seen upset.. Cry. I’d rather be shopping for a confirmation dress or hell a prom dress, but that’s just not something we can afford because wait… We’re going bankrupt cuz my brother messed around in high school and wants to wrestle in college when he wasn’t recruited anywhere and doesn’t have grades for scholarships. Wtf I know it’s selfish, but what about me!!!??? What’s gonna happen when I, someone who’s worked their ass off their whole life for college, needs money for tuition? Oh… I won’t have any cuz their giving my brother that too. What about when I need My car after I get my license that I’ve also worked my ass off for? Oh wait… They gave him that too cuz he wrecked his! Is there anything in this world that’s even the least bit fair??? I love my family but what about when everyone knows I’m in this situation and no one even offers their help? At least I have Jacob who helped me with my mom’s birthday… And helped me cook and clean… And shows me the love and respect thats hard to get from anyone in this family… And At least I have Joanie who offered to help get my confirmation AND prom dress(: and at least I have marcie who always is there to talk and put a smile on my face… And I least I have my grandparents who are always there for me no matter what. Without all them… Idk how I’d even get by.